scared

i'm scared and so scared.
please keep this bad feeling away.
please keep this bad things that i never want it to happen in my life away.
i'm scared if i can't handle it.
i'm soo scared if my spirit will shut down because of this.
just feel like really want to die and disappear into ashes wondering in this air.
i really don't have any strength to fight again this feeling.
it's haunting me, either in my sleep or my wake.
i'm just scared to death.
i have my mission for this thing and i really want it badly to come true.
it's not an option, it's a must!
please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please
please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please
grant my wish.
 the only wish that i'm really clear about right now.
just want to SMILE IN PEACE! NOT REST IN PEACE!